Commitments I Can't Keep

At 2:47 AM I prepared yet another perfect morning routine plan while staring at the ceiling. Everything should run as-expected while I typed about meditation, cold plunges, and daily showers. Knowing the only water touching my body tomorrow would be the cold cup of coffee and maybe the anti-freeze water for my car. I scheduled it for 06:59 AM when all of them would wakeup to your alarms - alarms that I will sleep through again.

Memory fog takes over each morning, that strange state where I forget what being human feels like. Heavy limbs, sticky eyes, the pulling force of yesterday's failures sticking to my skin. The gap between who I pretend to be online, and who I am, grows wider with each story I post during the night. My followers thank me for motivation while I lie motionless, unable to follow my own advice. How many of your online words have become empty promises to yourself? More than you want to admit.